It’s been a long, long time.
Truthfully, the last few years have been a whirlwind of strange, confusing and disheartening things.
As you may expect, the previous is past. Way, way past, and there were many wilderness months, but now, here I am, once again, in love? Probably. Who really knows.
I’m older. Some days, I am wiser, and some days, I am shockingly stupid. It really depends.
It’s New Year’s Day, which is a day on which I always decide to make huge, sweeping changes in my life, only to forget about them a week later, and I won’t pretend that this year will differ, but part of me hopes it will.
I have given my heart (and everything else, because you know I’m an all or nothing type of girl) to a man who pursued me relentlessly, literally across oceans and time zones, because he wanted me so badly.
I had been alone for a little while, and at first, I must confess, my interest was purely based on the fact that he wanted me so much. I found it amusing, and flattering. I had been so hurt, and was so tired of life and the pursuit of love, that I couldn’t see anything more than cynical amusement in the face of romance.
Still, he tried, and day by day, I allowed myself to be adored, and found myself falling in love in return.
I didn’t bring up any of… this with him for a while. It was a part of me that had been disappointed again and again, so I didn’t want to spoil it, and have my perception of him ruined.
Somehow though, it found a way in. Every now and again, the romantic gentleman would instruct, rather than advise. It began to happen more often, and soon, it became clear that our needs and desires were aligned.
As time went on, and our relationship grew, I could feel myself slipping away, and belonging entirely to him, and now, as a new year begins, I am filled with dreams of the future, and the warmth of being adored and possessed.
I finally learned to stick to my bedtime routine, and maybe this year, I will learn to stick to this habit too.
We’ll have to wait and see.
Until next time…
Aqua x
Tales Of an Aqua Baby 